I think success is scary as all hell at times.

For more than a year, I have been working hard at making photography a full time paying gig for me.   Last March I had a very nice show where I sold about 8 photographs.  I had my first real gallery showing in November, did an arts and crafts show in December,  I'm exhibiting in Phoenix's famous "Art Detour"  http://www.artlinkphoenix.com/alp/ this coming March, I'm an arts vendor at the up coming "Grand Desert Days Festival" in Morristown Arizona in April,  I have another gallery showing in April, have had numerous small sales here and there, and, out of the blue, (they sought me out), a high-end wellness center in Scottsdale has commissioned me for 25 (it started out as 17) large photographs (up to 24 x 36) for their new center opening in February.  Whew!

This last deal is a huge sale, worth a LOT of money, (enough to buy a small car), and came completely unexpected.  As to whether I could repeat something like that in the new future, I don't know, but for now it's pretty exciting.  Still, all this activity is scary in some ways.  It's like things are suddenly really happening.  It's what I wanted, what I've worked hard for, yet, as it starts to happen, I feel nervous, even scared of all the sudden success.  I suppose that is a "normal" feeling.  But I'll assume that as my confidence grows in being able to market my photographs, those scary feelings may well fade.

But for now, scary as hell as it looks at times, I must admit, it sure tastes sweet.

Jill